I want to explain @keffals' situation to my cis followers and motivate them to compassion & action, but I'm afraid of painting a further target on my back if I do :/

I've already survived once, and I'm not sure I'm ready to deal with it happening again :(

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) August 18, 2022

Going to issue the standard reminder, just to ward off this particular failure mode: never put anyone on a pedestal. Not me, not @keffals. Our strength is our collective strength, not any individual's.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) August 23, 2022

There is loads of work to do even once KiwiFarms is down. We need to regroup and repair as a community.

And yes, as I said on stream yesterday, there will be eggs or trans folk who do wind up coming out of the ashes of KF who will need help making amends and de-indoctrinating.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) August 23, 2022

Blugh, just starting to write the show notes for tonight, this material is a bit more impersonal so I don't need to pre-plan as much, but streaming is HARD work and I don't know how folks manage to do it every day.

Give a tech talk to 8k people? No problem. But this is hard!

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) August 25, 2022

tomorrow's gonna be fun, got some media interviews lined up, then have to start doing a crash course on some of the fuzzier edges of my CDN knowledge in preparation for Fri since I normally work a bit closer to the infrastructure than to the edge.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) August 25, 2022

oh, and did I mention that I've been shipping code every day this week throughout all of this shitstorm?

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) August 25, 2022

hello old friend cPTSD, good to see you again

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) August 25, 2022

literally have gone months without needing benzodiazepines but have needed them like 5 times this week :( :(

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) August 25, 2022

I might sound fine on stream or on interviews. I'm not actually fine, I'm masking it with benzos so I actually sound relatively coherent and dispassionate about something that is actually pretty fucking triggering

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) August 25, 2022

it's a tax on every single trans person of any degree of success or noteworthiness to have to deal with this, but yet pales in comparison to what KF does to the most vulnerable black & brown trans folks in our communities who lose jobs and housing from the harassment :( https://t.co/duXr0UJArP

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 1, 2022

yes, it has a chilling effect. yes, it's a drain on resources and cognition. overall I am very very lucky as a trans woman of colour to have a roof over my head, the resources to protect myself, and job that accommodates inconsistent output from shit occasionally hitting the fan.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 1, 2022

Okay, so -- all of this is predictable and part of how these things go. I see a lot of what we at Puzzle Pirates called "hand-waving freakoutery" (or HWFO for short).

Things will be fine. Sites pushed to the margins of the internet flap in/out as they go and shed membership.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 6, 2022

Getting the mountain of Cloudflare to move, that was what unblocked everything, the rest of the decay chain is predictable and manageable. It happened with 8chan/8kun, it happened with Parler and Gab, even the deepest parts of the web have _rules_ to avoid drawing attention.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 6, 2022

and either you play by those rules, or you get sold out by your peers/upstreams because you're drawing too much heat and endangering the other hate groups clinging to the edges along with you.

so, deep breaths. it will all be fine.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 6, 2022

and de-platforming to more and more marginal providers is not the only avenue here, it turns out that if you've done _any_ crimes along the way, the long arm of the law will eventually catch up with you. [fin]

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 6, 2022

I'm going to absolutely fucking nip this in the bud -- @keffals has a team that needs paid, lawsuits are _extremely_ expensive (lawsuit I was looking at filing in 2017 would cost $x00k), she deserves every penny of that $100k. Honestly $100k is a bargain for tanking this long.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 8, 2022

Every single one of the principals you see taking stage (me too, although I've only a fraction of the heat Clara has) has a team of at least half a dozen backing them up on at least half-time basis if not more. Some have been pulling 80 hour weeks. Away from paying day jobs.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 8, 2022

I haven't posted a GFM because I've just been swallowing the costs out of pocket, but hooboy if I actually invoiced for my time / my team's time, our safety measures, etc...

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 8, 2022

let me be a little more specific since I happen to work at the intersection of marketing and engineering. Let's talk about earned media vs paid media, because the amount of coverage and attention and people giving a shit can be measured, it's in the millions. $100k is a bargain.

— Liz Fong-Jones (方禮真) (@lizthegrey) September 8, 2022